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(no subject) [Apr. 23rd, 2008|12:19 am]
[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]

I think I'm going to update because I have a lot of shit on my mind. I better change my profile views to only friends only. Anyway. Shit hasn't been so great lately. Family side, thumbs down. I fucken jinx shit all the damn time. Me and Sister got into it the other day and now we aren't speaking. She should really try to realize what I done for her and LiAylah. She should fucken appreciate me. She said I was annoying and I shouldn't tell her what to do. PLEASE, I'm not telling you what to do. I'm just asking some fucken questions. She was saying she know why she ain't never wanna live here. Basically saying she can't stand me. I called LiAylah the other day and told her to wake me up so I could take her to school. The bitch, my sister, still got the nerve to use my fucken car. She usually leaves Sean with me for a couple minutes in the morning when she go drop off liaylah, but she didn't. So now I guess she doesn't trust me with Sean? whatever man. I done so much shit for her. I'm the one who brought her back home. I'm the one who persuaded my mom to accept her back in. I'm the one who helped my brother loosen up his anger at her. I'm the one who helped her get in touch with our dad again. Warren gives her ride, we bring her lunch, we take her out, yet she can't appeciate that shit and say THANK YOU instead of, "Well I'm paying for the food" Well bitch what about the past years for birthday, christmas, school clothes, EVERYTHING. And when we go out to eat. SHE DIDN'T CHANGE AT ALL. the whole fucken luncheon was all about COMPLAINING about the server and this and that. NEVER again am I going out to eat with her before they spit in my food. whatever.

On another note. Joann is pissed off at me. I try to apologize to her about how rude I was, and try to contact her. But she is ignoring me. Damn if you're gonna be mad at me, ignore me forever then. I'm not gonna wait on someone. We're like all grown, I'm trying to talk and work it out, yet she just wanna ignore me like a kid. We ain't in middle school. I dunno. I said what I had to say. and yeah. I'm done with trying to make everyone happy.

Ok I feel a little better. I'm gonna be busy for a good while. I'm getting my new bed this saturday. It's a serta. Queen size pillow top with a nice ass headboard $500. whew It's custom made. I've been waiting 3 weeks! Bebe and I went shopping last week for pillows. I got the sealy extra firm posturpedic pillows. $10 each, which was on sale half off. So they're like originally $20. I like hard pillows. I also got a new comforter bedset. It's really pretty. It's pretty pricey too. But you know me, I have expensive taste. It's a like jade color with brown in it too. It was designed by Daisy Fuentez. Pilates chick.

uhm yeah brb.
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(no subject) [Apr. 16th, 2008|12:53 am]
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]

I guess I will update. It's been forever. and Sarum is right, I only update when I'm mad at Warren. But whatever. All I have to say is bad moods are contaigious and I can't stand when people pout and get grouchy. WHATEVER DOOD.

Anyway I've been busy as a bitch. So much is going on with family, work, and myself. I have so much to say but I could only explain so little. I've got a nephew! He is so cute and smells like a baby. He looks like his older sister, LiAylah. I love them so much. Now we're waiting on another addition to the family this summer. My other nephew from my brother & Lisa. I could say things on the family side are thumbs up! LiAylah is different now since she has a baby brother and her mommy is back in her life. She's being more responisble and she's being a great big sister taking care of him. He's a good baby and is very strong. I love his dimples!

I'm kind of glad and relieved that my sister is back. So much weight has came off my shoulders. I could do me now. My sister is different now. She helps out a lot and she's back to her old self. anNOYing. Lol. But her and Warren be talking most of the time. They talk too much. She told me he reminds her of her childhood friend. She said if we'd ever break up, she thinks it's gonna be harder on her. She doesn't want me to ever leave him. heh wth.

On another note, I've been going out a lot lately. I enjoy going out. REMINDER: Comfortable shoes. I can't stand how I break in shoes all the time, and they still end up hurting my feet. I think it's because when we're in the club and we just be standing there, I needa move arounddd hehe.

Anyway, this is all for now. I will try my best to update often even if it's randomly.


enclosing some photos =)

LiAylah holding Sean.

My brother holding Sean aka Scott Jr. haha and LiAylah on the side

LiAylah and Sean sleeping together. Twins! Just one is bigger than the other. and gender of course. Lol

it's so funny, they'll stare at each other for a long time in a curious way. and they look so much a like. lol

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(no subject) [Mar. 27th, 2008|12:31 am]
[Current Mood |busybusy]

I just got a message on LiveJournal stating that SpecialKay's birthday was on MARCH 28th! That's me, homie. Anyways I'm in a good mood. Actually I'm exited because my birthday is coming up. I never usually get excited about my birthday because I end up working. But this year is different because it's on a friday and I got the day off, relaxing and enjoying my day. Also going out with a bunch of people is getting me excited to the point where I'm inviting random people. I really hope people go out just to have fun and not because "It's my birthday" I want everyone to enjoy theirselves.

Anyway great/eh news. I finally got a call back from the Auto place. My car is ready. I'm relieved that it wasn't something too major as in..anti-freeze in the oil. It had to do something with like I had an old remote starter in there and it messed up some wires and the ignition... and other shit either or.. it added up to close to $700. I'm officially broke. But at the same time I'm glad my car is okay. And I'm sure it's gonna run better. I hope to God. *cross fingers*

But I'm not gonna let that rain on my day. I'm still gonna enjoy this weekend. As soon as I got the call, I felt a big weight lift off from my shoulders. Anyway, LiAylah is kind of upset that Warren and I will not be here for my bday. She wants to celebrate and have fun with me. We'll do that Saturday when we get back. Probably bowling or something. And I told Warren to plan a little surprise for me with LiAylah and get me cake. Lol Cause LiAylah like doing those kind of things. So I have to act like I'm all surprised. Hehe.

Anyway, I'm gonna cut this short because I got a lot of things to do tomorrow. I have to get up, take LiAylah to school, Go to walmart and find some swimming shorts (hotel got a pool :), go to the bank and take out money :(, go with bebe to get my car, take my mom to her 11oclock appt., go to mall and pay for bill. yowzers.

I'll update after this weekend is over. See ya!
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(no subject) [Mar. 25th, 2008|12:41 am]
[Current Mood |excitedexcited]

Holy shit I haven't been updating in a while! Well so much has been going on. Let's just start with me being sick for a week. That wasn't good. I still cough here and there, and it's fucken annoying. Sometimes, I'll cough and I let loose. LOL which I hate. because I hate farts.

Everything is going pretty good except my car. It's still in the shop and the guy hasn't called me back. I know it's gonna cost a lot and I don't have money for that =( That's the only thing that's keeping me stressed. Everything else is pretty good.

I'm turning 24 friday. I'm pretty stoked. Me and Fatass<3 took the day off from work and he's taking me to Buffalo. We're gonna chill there for my bday, shopping, whining, dining. Yess I SAID whining because I do whine. We're gonna do a little bit of gambling too hehe. I think on Saturday we're gonna come back and that's when we'll party with my girls. Sarum you better come out too!!

I hope I'll have enough energy Saturday night, but of course! It's my Birthday weekend! Well I got a lot of looking up to do. I'm not too familiar with B-lo...only galleria, my cousins house... yeah and that's it...

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(no subject) [Mar. 12th, 2008|12:42 am]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]

Hmm sorry for my previous entry. I was a bit pissed. It's semi true when they say, "tomorrow's another day" Sort of like, don't dwell too much on what happened yesterday. Today was an okay day. I need major cleaning in my room. I think I'm planning to chill in my room a lot til about.. June? Hehe

I'm actually loving the weather we've been having...since the horrible storm that ruined everybody's weekend. And I didn't get a chance to see my baby til Sunday. I don't want to Jinx. But me and my bay has been doing really good. He's more considerate of me and I know he tries his best to not get into an arguement with me. Even though we go through arguements, he apologizes and admits that he was wrong.I know I'm not always right but 99.9% of the time, I am. See it seems like I did jinx. We almost got into it about a minute ago.

I can't wait til this weekend. Actually I can't wait this the few weekends. My birthday is coming so close. I'm getting old. I just hope everything will be a-okay for the rest of the YEAR, LIFE, CENTURY. I just want to grow old with my baby.

He does the cutest things. When it's too bright in my room and I'm trying to sleep, He'll put a towel over the window so it could be a bit dimmer. When I'm sleeping in his arms and I wake up, I catch him watching me sleep. I just want to MUSH his face. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm in LOVEEEEEE. Oh god let me stop. Well this is MY LIVEJOURNAL. i COULD write about whatever I want.

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(no subject) [Mar. 10th, 2008|04:31 pm]
What can I say? I'm pretty pissed off. I'm at work in the QC lab checking some parts. I like it in here. It's cool, quiet..excepting for the beeping noise. and no one else is in here. I can't stand drama at work. Especially when I don't know them like that. Why people sweatin me like we was all tight or something. Why people stressin' me out. Another thing is you expect your man to be there for you and understand why you upset and why the attitude. Guys should know when girls get mad. It's not that I take it out on people. It's 'If I'm ina bad mood. back the fuck off' I don't know what to think or so anymore. I don't even know what the hell is going on with me and people at work. what the fuck did I do to get this shit. I don't even be saying anything to anyone. shit. I don't get it. Damn I should leave this place. But on some real shit. I'm here doing me. None of thesee bitches pay my bills or did me any favors.God damn.what the hell. I'm not trying to here anybody. I never will becuase that's how I am. I was born and raised this way. This is me. Don't like it? Pop OFF!!!
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(no subject) [Mar. 4th, 2008|01:40 am]
[Current Mood |crushedcrushed]

I know haven't updated in a while. SPending time with my babe, I really have no need to update when I'm with him. I don't know what to write anymore. Right now my mood is down. I ain't feeling too good. I have a headache feeling nautious. I hope to god nothing bad happens. Usually when I feel like this and I don't know why I'm feeling sad, something bad usually happens. But I've got to try to think positive. I hate how I sense things that I don't want to sense. Right now I think mother nature is acting so weird and taking a toll on us.

*Sigh* I don't what it is that brought my mood down. I think Warren's mother got me thinking so much. Despise the fact she talks so much, I try not to let it get to me. I NEVER usually let it get to me anyway. But for some reason I kept thinking about what she said. She actually told a co-worker to tell me. Me and Warren's mom don't really click, and how I'm feeling, I don't think I ever will. Which is the sad part. I know I should try to atleast get along with her since she is Warren's mom. But she hurted me so much to point where I can't even fake a smile. I'm not that type of person. I can't be fake. I always show my true feelings. Which makes me sad because I thought to myself, I feel like I'm holding him back from his payments, from school, from all of that. I feel like I butted in and took over. I feel like I ruined his chance to have a good career by now.

I don't know what and how it turned out to be like this. He's not in school like me, and he's living by paycheck to paycheck. That ain't right. I don't know I feel like I need to back away for a while. I feel like I shouldn't be in the picture. I know you love me baby and all that is your problem, but I feel like you shouldn't have problems. I love you too, but I feel like you need to do you before you get involve in a serious relationship. I don't know..

I just thought to myself a lot today and I feel like I don't know. It's hard to explain. I talked to one of my friends recently. And they're going through a breakup and it bothers me to see my friends hurt like that. How can you hurt someone so bad in the long run. If you knew it wasn't going to be, should've ended it earlier so it wouldn't have hurt so much. Idk, people are so fucked up in this world sometimes.

Maybe lack of sleep has gottten me feeling sick. Idk.
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DRAMA [Feb. 29th, 2008|12:46 am]
[Current Mood |deviousdevious]

I haven't updated in a day. My bad. Mad drama at work. I'm sick of it. Today I got so mad, I started crying. I hate when that happens. I hate letting people see me cry. Anyway there's this one bitch that will go to hell. She has the nastiest attitude. Why does it feel like I'm going crazy and getting mad for no reason? But I do have a reason. Everyone just lets her walk all over them because she's a butter face. But not me, hell no. I don't give a shit how right you think you are. You better just come correct. I let nobody try to push me down. I don't just a rats ass if your spicegirl boyfriend got your back. What's my problem? What's that problem on your face. This chick is just pure evil. She's like a witch with a bad lump on her face.

Now as the day progresses I try to stay calm and not knock the bitch over. But then I see every other person is having a problem with this bitch. She even got an attitude with my baby. She could fucken rot. She's gonna be a loner for the rest of her life. Even my supervisor sees it. Ugh. Dumb bitch. I'm standing my ground. I don't care if she tells the head boss. I'll just do my job and ignore this bitch. She's shook I know this bitch is shook. She needs to lighten up. I feel bad for her redneck hick boyfriend. He was mad cool at first. But when she came in the picture, he's a bitch too. I don't know who's wearing the heels. LMAO. What a low life to lower his standards to that. And to come at me and get into the situation. He knows I could beat that ass. I hope she rips her stank ass pants she wears EVERYDAY.

Enough with the stank hore. SHE'S A HORE. H-O-R-E. hore!!! LOL.

I can't wait for tomorrow/this weekend. I love spending time with my baby. I was cooking a while ago and I was just saying to myself. I can't wait til my baybay lives with me... if he ever plan to in the really NEAR future. I could picture myself cooking him some frenchfries after we come from work. heh. When I wake up tomorrow, I want to take my mom to get her haircut. Hopefully she'll want to go. If not, I'll have a boring morning. Hoping do some friday lunch with my baby like we always do before we go to work. In a way I kind of like driving, I think. I take charge and I get to take him with me and he can't go home unless I say so. I've got you trapped baby... hardy har...har.....

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Scared [Feb. 27th, 2008|12:41 am]
[Current Mood |nervousnervous]

My baby got into an accident today. Just last year he got into one too. I believe both aren't his fault. This weather is scarey. I hope everything goes alright for him. It's just I have to be driving now if we go places, AND I HATE, I REPEAT I HATE DRIVING. Seriously, I only drive if I HAVE to. Which is to and from work, appts., etc. But now I have to pick him up and take him to work and home. Good thing we work at the same place. More time with me. teh heh. I can't wait til the weather clears up then it'd be more enjoyable.

I'm looking forward to an enjoyable weekend hunnie. It's gonnabe wednesday! Hump day! Middle of the week. Work has been really slow. I'm not complaining. I actually like doing nothing. I'm sure tomorrow or the following days, I'll get something harder. I've just been getting it way too easy for the past two days.

When I had to drop off my baby, I was so scared! I don't know why. Even 101.3 couldn't even calm me down. I felt my heart racing and everything. It was just so nasty out!

*SIgh* this weather is wearing me out. Please I hope they cancel school tomorrow, and please I hope the roads will be clear by the time I have to drop my mom off to her appt. blahh*

My pants ripped. =(
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(no subject) [Feb. 26th, 2008|12:24 am]
[Current Mood |lovedloved]
[Current Music |Sara Bareilles - Love song]

It's been gorgeous the past few days. I had a great weekend with babe. I swear he's the greatest bestfriend I've ever had, plus more! He slept over again on Saturday night. I love when he sleeps over so I won't have to miss him so much when he's not here next to me. What's even better if he makes a self-invitation of sleeping over. *hint* So I won't have to ask. teh heeeeee.

Today was gorgeous. Today was also the first day going back to the gym. I swear I felt like I was going to die on that elipticol. I haven't worked out in forever. I feel good those. I hope I'm getting myself on the right track. I mean I am, I just hope I keep going on this track. There this girl at the gym that keeps following me and Baby says that's my friend. Ugh I'm straight, strictly dickly. =/

Work was pretty smoothe. It's getting a bit slow.I know you're probably sick of me talking about Warren, but today there was something different about us. We didn't have a dispute. He was VERRY VERY loving. And if we were to get into it. He would stop, back up and give in and say.."Ok sorry baby, I was just joking" He is just sooo loveable. It sort of felt like the first time we were dating when he was always so sweet. My little fat snuckums. *muah*

I cut my finger today and it wouldn't stop bleeding. It still hurts. I can't stand the sight of blood and I almost fainted...hmmm

12:48...so late. Need to start sleeping early so I get enough rest for the gym.
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